Come on, laugh, gloat.... ha, leave your name in my tagboard. I will come crashing into you when i finally do pass the next time round.
Disappointed? Of cos i am. But somewhow i'm not as sad as i thought i shd be. Perhaps its because i knew that i should have passed. Its not as if i had overturned the car or something. In fact my circuit was almost perfect. ( i got 2 or 3 demerit pts for it, meaning i cld afford up to 15 demerit pts for the 2nd stage and still pass the test.)
Obviously beeming with confidence at this point of time, i drove faster. As i was approaching a zebra crossing, i maintained my speed since i did not see anybody.
Suddenly, and i really mean suddenly, some arsehole just came running onto the zebra crossing.
Too late to jam my brakes so i sped pass the zebra crossing instead since the pedestrian was still a gd 2m plus away from my car.
My world collapsed.
I cast dagger looks in the direction of my horrified tester. He looked at me as if i had just killed somebody. I could have adopted the classic arms spread "Who? What? Me? I didnt do anything!" pose that soccer players like Roy Keane always assume after they have kicked someone's kneecap off.
But lets be more adult about this. I accepted the fact that i was negligent. I got 13 pts eventually but *sigh sigh sigh fuck fuck fuck* , i had an "immediate failure" pt. No use crying over spilled milk. I would rather shake myself like a wet dog. There was no point in prolonged mopery. I knew that the world wldn't change if i frowned hard enough. I knew because i had tried that and it didnt work.haha so well, wait for another time to pass my test i guess.... *chuckle*
Note: Anyway i would like to say that i have the best parents in the whole wide world. haha, bold claim u might say but thats wat i think anyway. Upon hearing that i had failed my TP test, they immediately launch into a damage limitation exercise. They bought me satay, a pint of haagen diaz ice cream and treated me like the spoilt brat that i was when i was younger. My mom even gave me a big hug and words of encouragement.
I was coping well with my result but my mom's actions made me emotional. This is a good example of a phenomenon i had noticed again and again. You can be hard as nails, I can anyway, when everyone and everything is going wrong. But as soon as someone ( in this instance, my mom ) shows you a kindness -- you just want to crack wide open.
I didnt cry. But i felt so loved, to the extent that i felt guilty since i cant remember doing anything to deserve such unconditional love from my parents.
I feel like the luckiest kid on earth.
My parents made me feel special,
At least for tonight.
Love you mom and dad....=)
Kennyster @
7:52 PM
The Unpretty
Kenny Loh
23
Formerly from Dunman High, VJC and formerly a proud member of the 2SIR 11th mono Alpha Company Apache warriors.
Currenly a 3rd year student at the Singapore Management University.
I'm into books, pool, soccer & conversation (by day), justice, honour & vengeance (by night).
Constantly on the lookout for crimelords, deformed megalomaniacs and women.
