Yup. Thats right. I think i have been a pretty nice guy thus far. In fact too nice for my own good. Such as to the extent where my supposed friends take me for granted and i end up living my life for others rather than for myself. ( which i think shd enable me to have a lifetime membership at Losers Anoymous. )
I won't go into details to what happened cos im too infuriated to write the whole story down but lets say that Mr Jackass was supposed to be on duty today but he went clubbing the night before. I chose not to go and when i reminded him of his duty this morning, i got fucked right in the face by him for being inconsiderate in waking him up and he made many chimerical remarks whiched totally pissed me off. I think i have a pretty high threshold for insults and crude comments about myself but this time round he went way past the limit.
If i had a condom in my hand, i wld gladly put it over his head. Since mr jackass likes to act like a dick, might as well dress him up like one... And who the fuck does he thinks i am? A dummy standing there to absorb his verbal abuse and whiny rambling whinge? Am i supposed to smile and shrug and good naturedly apologise for upsetting him?
OVER MY BLOODY DEAD BODY U PRICK!
And i proceeded to give him my piece of mind. Didn't care if anyone was around, expletives flew out of my mouth as if i was a seasoned chao ah beng as i gestriculate wildly to prove my point. And i didnt care dat my narratives was all over the place, and massive amounts of senseless crap came with it, hugh chunks at a time. I wasnt going to concede an inch to this vacuous gormless bastard. And i sure didnt notice that i was spitting like an overheated fryer.
And it strangely felt good. I've not lost my temper for prob. a yr plus or so now and i guess my frens were pretty surprised dat i was capable of such outbursts. But i didnt care anymore. I will not be a drone and a drudge to niceness. I didnt owe anybody anything and i dont have to live my life for others .. i shd live mine. ..
As i always like to say , the sun will still rise and we will still breathe tomorrow whether we like it or not, so why not feel the best or do the best with what we have.....
Kennyster @
12:10 AM
The Unpretty
Kenny Loh
23
Formerly from Dunman High, VJC and formerly a proud member of the 2SIR 11th mono Alpha Company Apache warriors.
Currenly a 3rd year student at the Singapore Management University.
I'm into books, pool, soccer & conversation (by day), justice, honour & vengeance (by night).
Constantly on the lookout for crimelords, deformed megalomaniacs and women.
